Twisted Tales of TG Horror!

The new book is out! This one is unusual for me as it is a collection of short stories that run through a variety of horror sub-genres and classic TG tropes such as the infamous cross-dressing Halloween party. There are ghosts and haunted mansions, mysterious kicks in the belly, and menacing phantoms. It was fun to write and I’m betting it will be fun to read! I want to thank all my Patrons on Patreon for their support which helps me keep on making TG artwork!

Here are the links:

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Drop me a line. Let me know what you think! Or, leave a review. If you want first looks at stories like these as well as TG GIFS and short films, support me on Patreon: http://www.patreon.com/tgkadee

Pulse: MTF Body Swap Movie

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Olly, foreground, decides to become a girl.

If you crave a body swap movie that avoids the usual cliches of the genre, Pulse may just be the film for you. How is it different? Let me list some of the ways.

First, Olly, the protagonist is NOT some sexist or callous male who needs to walk a mile in her heels to learn some life lessons. In fact, Olly is a gay, disabled teen age boy. He long for a new body in part to escape his disability, and he thinks becoming a girl will allow for him to have a relationship with a straight boy he is in love with and has been for years.

Other than one scene where Olly is amazed to have BOOBS! The film otherwise plays dark and dramatic. The creators choose to have many scenes after Olly gets his new body where they cut back and forth between how he looks to the world– a young blonde– and his “inner self.” This worked for me in the sense that in many of these movies I feel it is easy to forget the “guy” inside. In Pulse, we are constantly reminded, and without giving away too much it also speaks to what ultimately becomes the theme of the film.

Olly has a very supportive group of friends. They embrace his choice, and the only concerns they raise relate to the intolerance of people and how he needs to be careful. Olly’s mom is okay with it as well, though her own drinking problems and absentee motherhood have as much to do with it as her willingness to support her son’s choices. Still, Olly then proceeds to engage in a lot of alcohol related behaviors some young people stumble into, and we get a kind of coming of age story within the gender swap.

I thought the acting was great, and I liked the style of the show, which is currently streaming in the US on the HERE network. I do recommend, but now I must address the ISSUES. Stop here if you do not want to get into the politics.

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The concerns I have seen raised about this film are numerous. First, there are concerns about how it could be seen as making trans look like a choice. The creators state that the movie in their view has nothing to do with the trans experience and was not in any way to suggest trans people just choose to be trans. In this day and age, every gender swap movie is examined in terms of how it can impact the trans community, which is very important given the reality of the dangers posed by intolerance, ignorance and hate.

Another concern raised is that if re-enforces an assumption made by some cis people that gay men want to be women. I feel what this movie explores more specifically, and the writer has stated it was inspired by his own experiences growing up and exploring his sexual identity, is a much more common fantasy. That is, seeing someone who is attracted to the opposite sex and kind of wishing that you were that sex, so they could love you. It is not a fantasy that is really rooted in that feeling of being in the wrong body, but a kind of fantasy. The same thing can happen in terms of our types– the nerdy girl who wishes she was a cheerleader so the quarterback would like her, or a dorky guy who wishes he was the quarterback.

Some young people even do change to become what they feel others want them to be, a strategy that usually leads to unhappiness and regret.

Lastly, of course, is the portrayal of the notion that his disability is something to be escaped. We live in an amazing and awesome era where differently-abled people have embraced and thrived. So, here’s the thing and where we get to the spoiler. Olly ends up going back to being a boy. He finds out that becoming someone else does not solve all his problems. He learns that being a disabled gay man is who he is, and all he needs to be.

That, to me, is a positive message.

New Book!

Check out my new book! Carrolwood. So, what makes this story different from the others I’ve written? A few things. First, I explore the relationships of my main characters, Carl and Sunni, with their parents. We see how their gender swaps change the family dynamic. Second, and this is rare for me, it includes both a MTF and FTM swap. So, I set out to create something fresh and different.

It’s a rivals to lovers style tale with a gender bender angle and a narrator who’s a lot of fun. Free sample!

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Interview with author Alice Duffield

I’ve read a lot of TG fiction. A lot. I started reading TG fiction before the Internet, scouring used bookstores for out of print books like Thorne Smith’s Turnabout, or eagerly devouring the occasional TG book that came along in the Science Fiction book club, like Beyond Rejection. Now, I am always on the lookout for new writers who have something fresh to say, or a new way to say something timeless.

In this episode of genderfluidnews, I would like to introduce just such an author, Alice Duffield. Alice posted a notice on the TG Comics discussion board inviting people to take a look at her latest works, and I did. I saw right away a writerly quality to the work, and a fresh voice. Here is my interview with Alice. Enjoy, and please take a minute to check out her writings. Links at the bottom.

1. How did you become interested in TG stories?

It’s a good question.  Transgender issues have always been ones that interested me, as has gender fluidity.  I have friends and acquaintances who have dealt with the issue of being in the wrong body.  Some just choose to cross dress privately, others have taken the courageous step to live outwardly as the gender they identify with versus the sex they were assigned at birth.  I wonder constantly about what it would be like to be in the body of the opposite sex all of a sudden (probably because of my writing).  I am not a full-time writer, but I am asked to write a fair number of non-fiction, industry or professional type articles and I just find it’s not as much fun!  I like telling a story and I like telling TG stories because it’s a genre that interests me.  Not all my stories actually have a TG angle to them though and I like to work on stories that don’t come as easily to me as a challenge.  You’ll find a few fan fiction stories I’ve thrown in for fun.

2. What are a few of your favorite TG stories, books or movies?

I hope I don’t disappoint your readers as I spend so much time writing I don’t do a good job reading.  Circe’s “Ghost Writer” and “Death Mask” I thought were both excellent stories (Fictionmania), KannalArt’s “Raan’s Doll”, “Femail” by TGTrinity, “Second Chances” by tfes8.  I also am constantly amazed at the artistry of some of the work posted to TGComics – TGTrinity, Lilac Wren, Sturk Wurks, LenioTG just to name a few. As for movies, I don’t have too many, but “Switch” with Ellen Barkin and Jimmy Smits comes to mind.  It was probably the first film/story that ever got me thinking of TG as a genre.  I haven’t seen it in a while, so I don’t know how it holds up, but it definitely had an impression on me. 

3. How would you describe your artistic philosophy?

Hmm…That’s a tough one as I haven’t spent the time to really reflect on it.  I will say that to me, if I’m going to write a story and put it out into the world, it is first a reflection on me as a writer, so I do set a high bar for what I’ll publish.  Second, I take the reader into consideration and try hard to write the story in such a way that they’ll appreciate that I spent time crafting sentences and paragraphs that have some sophistication.  I’m not interested in smut, or as you put it Taylor, “stuff that reads like low-quality VHS porn movies.”  Anyone can write that stuff and it is fairly prevalent on many TG sites.  I’m not graphic for the sake of being graphic and when I am graphic, it’s because it’s important to the story, the characterizations or the plot.  Even then, I try to write the scene in such a way that it isn’t crass or pandering.  It’s my job to give the reader a scene in such a way that it doesn’t debase the character, story or my own aesthetic.

To that end, I really try to stay away from material or story lines that are inappropriate or offensive.  I think it’s important to reflect what are very real-world issues respectfully. For example, I have preferred to show corruption of a character instead of brutality.  I think you can take a story to a similar place, but in a more interesting way, if you use subtlety and nuance versus say, blunt force.  I don’t depict brutality, violence or inhuman acts and frankly I don’t care for humiliation as a story theme.  The world has enough bad mojo in it, I don’t want to add to it so you are more likely to find tenderness and respect in my stories.

4. Which writers influenced you?  (TG or Non)

Outside of TG, lots of mainstream authors have influenced me.  Aaron Sorkin, Joyce Carol Oates, Gillian Flynn, Jonathan Safran Foer…the list goes on.  I think one of the things I take from these writers is the twist on the plot, the new angle, or at least the interesting angle they take to a story that has maybe been told before.  I think it’s helped be make my stories less straightforward and more interesting.  I still have a long way to go.

As for TG writers that is a shorter list for sure.  Circe on Fictionmania is a writer I really respect and appreciate.  I’ve been fortunate to have some back and forth with Circe about our various stories which has been incredibly helpful.  One story that’s just come out lately that really struck a chord with me is tfes8’s “Second Chances” on Fictionmania and DeviantArt.  It is a great example that a strong story, well written, can capture one’s heart.

5. Walk us through your creative process

I love that you think there’s a process!  Well actually there is to some degree.  Usually I get a nugget of an idea, something interesting, something that is kind of a hook for me about the plot, so I’ll start a document and sketch out the idea.  I may also give myself a challenge, such as the length of the story, or, like I did with “Lady of the Wood”, not to use any dialogue.  I’ll sketch it out then ask myself questions as I flush it out.  Why would the character do this?  What is the back story that got her here?  How do I explain why they are doing this or that, etc…?  Once I’ve done that, I usually have the entire plot, at least at a high level, worked out.

Generally, it is fair to say that I try to utilize various writing techniques as well and so that needs to be thought about up front to some degree.  For example, stories need to have pacing and that means there needs to be a reasonable plot.  Aaron Sorkin speaks about it like this “To begin with, I worship at the altar of intention and obstacle. Somebody wants something, and something is standing in their way of getting it. They want the money; they want the girl; they want to get to Philadelphia. Then the obstacle to that has to be formidable, and the tactics they use to overcome that obstacle are what shows us the character.”  

Similarly, there needs to be a reason the action is taking place.  For example, the main character makes some sort of a contract (like the character takes an oath or makes a promise to her dying father) and is in some sort of crucible with the clock ticking.  To do this though, you have to have plotted it out ahead of time or risk the story meandering or being disjointed.

From that point, I usually need to do some research to fill in the gaps and make things at least somewhat believable.  I’ll find articles or sites on the topic and collect the links.  I’ll even create Pinterest boards.

Here is an example of my notes for a story I wrote called “Shelter in Place”.  It’s probably the closest I’ve come to writing a story that has a despicable inhuman act and in order to not go down the wrong path I needed to have a believable character that manipulated and corrupted our protagonist.  Here are a sample of the notes I wrote to flush out the characters and the plot:

“She is a former psychiatrist and now Hedge fund exec, so she has both the means and knowhow to be evil.  This [the story plot] is a game to her, she wants to see if she can do it and she is incredibly competitive. She had this idea for a while and found the man she wanted to experiment on (maybe thought about epidemiology before going into psychiatry?).

Saw the pandemic coming and reworked her plan for the shelter in place order

He is her boyfriend, 5-10 years younger?  He loses his hourly job quickly after joining her in her home so becomes her assistant to pass time and make some money.

She transforms him over 12 months using drugs, manipulation and hypnosis

  • Uses fabrics and tactile sensory while he is hypnotized to help his progression?
  • cognitive behavioral therapy – makes him watch shows, videos etc…
  • She tells him he has gender dysphoria and or dissociative disorders
  • Manipulation – https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Psychological_manipulation
  • Dopamine

In this case, I didn’t use all of these ideas but I wanted to get them down so I could incorporate good ideas without forgetting them.  Then, it’s just a matter of writing and rewriting until it’s in a place I want it to be to feel good about publishing it.

6.  What Themes do you prefer to explore in your writing.

As I mentioned before, I’ve always found the idea of corruption interesting.  That can be a pretty wide theme, everything from taking a bribe to corrupting one’s soul.  With that, I’ve explored what happens if the ‘good guy’ doesn’t win.  Redemption and triumph can be very satisfying in a story, but I think it’s clear that not all stories end like that, at least in real life.  The bad guy wins, not just a little bit, but a lot.  So why should we always write that the protagonist triumphs?  There are a few of my stories that explore this, for example one of my older stories “Vanitas” and a recent one “The Chosen Few”.  In each, the main character is presented with evil, or what we’ve historically taken as evil in literature, and in some way gives in to it, becoming irreparably corrupted in the process.  There is something provocative about that I think, something sexy and I do think plays well as a plot device for TG stories.

I’m also a sucker for women’s fashion.  I adore it.  It is a fascinating topic on so many levels.  Fashion (at very least high fashion) and beauty are about aspiration more so than need and I think that is fertile ground for stories, especially TG stories. Thus, I usually take time to describe the character’s fashion or dress in my writing.  I love thinking about how a man would feel in sumptuous women’s clothes for the first time.  The textures, and the colors, the feel of them would be scintillating.  So, in my process I actually get ideas for what the characters could wear by going to Pinterest and looking around until I find several outfits I want in the story.  I’ll start a new board for each and pin different shots of clothing, jewelry and even décor for reference as I write.  I even found shots of old mill houses for my story “Imperial Assassin” so I could describe it well.

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Thanks, Alice. I can’t wait to see how your work develops and evolves!

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Halloween Happenings

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I am in the full Halloween spirit, good people, and since I have run out of spooky gender bender material to share from the world of mainstream media, I thought I woulds share some info about my Halloween offerings on Patreon!

First, there are Halloween stories! I love writing old school gender swap Halloween stories like the ones I used to read waaaaay back on the early days of Fictionmania, and both stories have that throwback vibe. Lady Maker is about a vengeful spirit that turns men into women, while The Masquerade takes the old “cross-dress for Halloween” in a slightly new direction. There will be two more spooky Halloween tales before the night itself!

Meanwhile, in the slightly weird and wonderful category, I am making Halloween GIFS where classic horror characters such as Freddie Krueger, Jason and Chuckie find themselves turned into females. I will continue to do those and other Halloween morphs through the end of the month as well.

Why not pop by? It’s a fun and funky place!

Another Spooky Gender Swap

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The Books of Blood - Volume 5

Many years ago now, a new horror writer emerged on the scene by the name of Clive Barker. He was heralded by, among others, then reigning master of horror, Stephen King, who wrote, “I have seen the future of horror, and he is Clive Barker.”

One of his early works, appearing in Volume V of the Books of Blood series, featured a man who wants to restore an abandoned pool facility. When he and a local mobster he hopes to partner with visit the pools, they are surprised to find a gaggle of naked teen-age girls who flee from them. Both men are– intrigued. The man goes back later, to find a strange pool in the middle, which he swims in only to find himself later transformed into a woman. His girlfriend is not into it.

More interesting to me was the mobster, a man’s man type who loved to surround himself with beautiful women. We learn that he believes himself a ladies man, and a man who loves women– the sounds of their voices, their bodies… he does not take it so well when he finds breasts blossoming on his chest as he begins to transform into one of those ladies he professes to love so much.

I’ve probably given away too much already. It’s a surreal, trippy story from the man who brought us Hellraiser. Check it out on Amazin. There is also a comic book adaption in issue #4 of Tapping the Vein.

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Spooky Body Swaps for Halloween!

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In the spirit of Halloween ( best holiday ever) I am sharing reviews/details on two gender bender horror films. The first is an adaptation of H.P. Lovecraft’s The Thing on the Doorstep. If you are not familiar with the Lovecraft story, it features a woman named Asenath who swaps bodies with a man, eventually taking over his life, leaving him to be her. The movie (available on Amazon) features that central idea, but has many variations. Now, let me say right up front, it ain’t great. The actors often seem as if they are just reciting lines like soulless robots. But, it does have some fun body swap moments including the couple having sex as each other.

I felt it was worth watching. Once. I tried to watch it again and couldn’t sit through it. That probably doesn’t sound great, but, seriously, if you are into body swaps and horror, it’s worth that one watch.

The second entry is based on a story called “Chocolate” in a book called “Hot Blood,” which also featured a really great MTF body theft story. In this film, as in the story, a man gains a psychic connection with a woman he has never met, and begins to feel everything she feels both in terms of emotions and physical sensations. All of which becomes very awkward for him when she decides to have sex. It can be found on Plex as part of the masters of Horror series. I couldn’t get a link to the actual movie, but it is in there under Masters of Horror, Season One.

You might also want to check out the book. There are editions as cheap as 3 dollars!

Happy viewing, and how about checking out my Patreon? In addition to the concluding chapters of my body swap novel Carrolwood, October will feature special Halloween TG Gifs as well as an exclusive Gender Swap horror story!

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And, I’m back!

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Hey, folks! I am officially back! I had thought to unplug and take a break until the end of September, but my eyes have healed, my brain has cleared and I am back to my writing, creating, fun having self. Eyes, you ask?

Well, it turns out if you 1) spend a huge amount of time on the computer and 2) spend a lot of that time with your nose practically pressed to the screen, your eyes break. What happened to me is that I started to see jagged lines cutting across everything I looked at, kind of as if I were looking at the world through a broken cellphone screen. Sometimes, there would be swirling lines all around the edges of my vision.

This was a little weird and scary. It also made it so I couldn’t safely drive anywhere, as I could never be sure when I would suddenly see all these crazy jagged lines breaking up everything I looked at. So, it was time to rest my eyes. But, after a few days, they seem fine, and I feel fine, and so back at it!

I do plan on better habits now as I return to my creative efforts. I am going to make sure to look away from the screen for at least 20 seconds every twenty minutes, sit back from the screen and make sure the room is lit. I will also wear my glasses! Hopefully, my eyes won’t break again if I am more careful.

The Patreon is back as well, with a new video there right now, and a new installment of Carrolwood coming Monday along with a new GIF. Join me! Please! It’s gonna be fun, and you will get exclusive first looks at all my creative efforts! Plus, I will tell you how awesome you are. Actually, I will tell you that anyway.

You are awesome!

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Walking to Inspiration!

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Today, I’m gonna share on where I get my ideas. I’ve written hundreds of gender swap short stories, novels, novellas and now scripts over the years. While they share a common element– someone gets gender swapped– they also are all different and unique in their own ways. Mostly, that does not result from a kind of logical process, but from an imaginative experience.

One of the greatest idea generating activities in my life involves walking. Aside from getting story ideas, I just like to walk. It’s healthy, and for me it’s a form of meditation. When I walk regularly, I just feel better physically, mentally and spiritually.

And, I get ideas. In the case of my current novel, Carrolwood, for example, the voice of the narrator came to me as I walked around my neighborhood after dinner one sweaty summer night. I sort of met this character, and I thought the voice was funny, and I began to think about what kind of story I could tell with that voice. The characters and setting all then just kind of emerged from my subconscious.

Another time I was walking around the beach down at Asbury Park, NJ, where the evil, 19th century clown Tillie still serves as town mascot, and I just started to think about what if Tillie were an evil spirit haunting the town? As I walked around, I took pictures of different locations, and the story ended up being built around that walk.

In addition to getting ideas for stories, I sometimes walk to inspiration while in the middle of a story. Sometimes when I am writing I get in a jam and can’t figure out what the character would or should do, I take a long walk, and the answer a lot of times just comes to me. Sometimes I see the scene in my head, and at those times I am very much inclined to believe in the idea of a muse that is feeding me ideas. It really does feel to me sometimes like I am seeing the story happen and just writing it down rather than “coming up with it.”

There are other ways ideas come to me. Sometimes I create a cover and then write a story to match. I have been inspired sometimes by other authors. For example, I once decided to write a TG story in the style of Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. Likewise, Forever Mine started out as “forced femme version of YOU (the book and Netflix series). There must be others I can’t think of right now– Oh, yeah– It Girl! What? Just started out as “TG Anime.”

But, I would say, without walking, I think I would write a lot less. There’s just something about walking along a shady, tree-lined path that allows my mind to open itself up and accept the gifts of inspiration!

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