So, only two days after I triumphantly submitted my amazing, ground breaking gender bending project to Amazon, they rejected it with a “we’ll take a pass.”
Am I disappointed? Of course. I knew when I submitted it that the odds were very low, but of course I had some small hope that somehow a wacky idea from a guy with absolutely no experience would somehow make it through the gate keepers. I thought I would get to live in that dream space for weeks or months, imagining myself being interviewed by Steven Colbert and saying, “It’s true. I had no experience at all, but I believed in myself and that was all it took!”
Well, it actually takes way more than that. Disney lied to us!
So, what next? More scripts, more submission and continued efforts to find an agent! You need a gatekeeper to get past the gatekeepers. Why? Because they have the keys!
A few muses on various ideas and emotions I have been stirring around in my brain since finding out my show wasn’t getting anywhere at Amazon:
It has been my quirk in life to only find myself drawn to professions in which rejection is a constant and inevitable part of the experience: acting, comedy, writing, to choose any of these paths is to embrace a life up to your eyeballs in the fetid muck of “we’ll take a pass.”
Now, usually the rejections are generic and compassionately bland, but especially in the acting world you sometimes deal with cretinous people who feel a need to take a big steaming poop on you as they “take a pass.” I have had people laugh at me, mock me, tell me to “go live your life.” I have seen casting directors on the street and said “hi,” only to have them comment to the person next to them that I am “terrible.” One casting director once compared to a serial killer.
(That same casting director, by the way, was on twitter a few weeks ago complaining that he didn’t even get health care in his job, and I thought– karma! Perhaps your lack of caring for others is just bouncing back on you!)
Okay. Sometimes I do get bitter. What do you want from me?
But I keep going. That’s all I can do. And I keep writing, and I put my own stuff out these because I live in an era where I can do that and reach readers who aren’t finding that the gatekeepers are making stuff for them.
And my message today to anyone out there reading is to do the same. Next time you face rejection, just keep going. Keep going. Keep going. Just make sure you never reject yourself. Keep on loving yourself, and that rejection will only make you stronger.